toefl gua lusa ni

hm hm. bismillah.

Frankly speaking, I haven't ready yet. Reality is, I can't do anything but to face it.
It has always been like this. Trust me, I'm used to it because... I believe in magic! *finger flick*
naah I'm just too lazy.

Here's the thing, Tomorrow, my friends and I will head off to Sheraton hotel, where the test will take place on 8 in the morning on the next day. Yeah, we are coming one day earlier just to look around the test centre; we haven't been there before. lol

I don't dare to phone my ummi because she might ask questions like
"ok, you sure you're ready?".
"have you prayed solat hajat?"
"have you packed up everything?"

and I'm tired of lying, okay. it's... I am not okay, but don't worry. I got this. so yeah

I just texted her about tomorrow and it won't take long for her to call me right away. oh ummi I love you

change

I dont have much to say. I just feel like updating this old bloggie. Hey how have you been?

So my friend and I planned to travel around Malaysia. Yknow, backpackers. They are wild and tough and strong yeah we wanna be those kind of people. I had my driving class today with abah. I wish I could travel by car but nope that against my own rule which is to travel by public transports.

let's see. I have my touch n go card which I got it for free from mydin, thanks Panadol. Now it's more convenient to use the trains. I have my tablet which also be quite helpful for traveling. There are lots to prepare, but now I have to focus on my upcoming exams and English proficiency tests. We'll execute this mission in May inshaAllah.

Rain

Bismillah. Hari ni, tak tahu nak cakap ape. Alhamdulillah hari hari hujan, dan aku di rumah sedap berhibernasi menambah lemak untuk menahan sejuk eceh defensive. Sejuk sejuk ni, nak cakap pasal fly. Hm, lama lagi. So cakap pasal toefl lah. Test center kat key ell, tengah tengah key ell yang super busy waktu weekend. Aku plan dengan kengkawan nak tidur hotel. So pagi pagi kita gather senang kat  sheraton hoteyl. Yang tak berapa jauh dari hotel bajet kami.

Tak kira, nak cakap pasal fly gak. Ramai sedara mara dah congratulate aku awal awal sebab dapat offer MARA untuk fly ke US. Risau aku ni.anyways, Thank you everyone. As for my parents, they are pretty worried about me. Hm, I have a bad sense of direction., I often got myself lost in the middle of nowhere. I often misplace the most valuable things of mine and sometimes even other's. In short, I'm still a kid to go to a foreign place.

So yeah, they kinda worried. They told me, I need to have my stand. There will be many wild things to handle, a different exposure you got to face. But you are always muslim first. A muslim girl, a muslim student, muslim friend, a Muslim; for no matter where you go, you should have your stand. Islam is universal, and show them Islam is for everyone. Allah is always near. Tuhan yang jaga kita selama ni kat Mesia, ialah tuhan yang sama juga yang akan jaga kita di US. okay I sort of elaborating the points but this is my understanding to the words they said.

Nak kawan dengan matsalleh tu sume, boleh tp jangan sampai terpesong. Na, lebih baik fail daripada terpesong. Tp kalau dah ada kat jalan Allah, Allah nak bagi fail ke?

Tq umi, abah.

Birthday

is A day where I can get 18 people posting on my wall on the same day

counting days till I get my driving license.

I wonder when can I get my driving license. =,=

 

my little friend

I saw him playing alone. He is so playful but he doesn't have many friends to play, just Panda and his mother, Syasya. He can run and jump simultaneously beautiful. And he loves it. Whenever I open the main door, he will run as fast as he can, and get into the house like "oh yeah, he made it!" and everyone would shout "Pupu, get out!". but it took some time before we took him out as he is so adorable, he sometimes sleep in the house. I think he is so bored that he wants to play with us in the house. haha. I love to take his pictures and he would pose like a freak. Haha pupu you're so funny.

I cant forgive your habit which is biting people, it hurts >..< but I still play with you. I took revenge by pulling your bent tail. Haha serves you right!

when I get back to college, Ummi phoned me.
She said that a cat got hit by a car this morning.
And that was the saddest car accident I have ever heard.
I am very sad, pupu.
you leave us so soon.
*tears*

dream can be simple

as salamu alaykum

 

hey hey everyone. well, the holy month of Ramadan ends already. banyak orang akan doa banyak-banyak on that month. too many wishes and dreams. teringat masa tu Ramadan and aku tengah trial spm. fuh, terkezut den. tak pernah pernah dapat keputusan sebaik tu sebelumnya.

 

for mothers of little boys or girls, tell them. Ramadan is the month where most wishes will come true. you don't need to wait for a shooting star. Allah gives you one month of wishing and praying to him. many great things happen in Ramadan. whether you realize it, or not. it still happens. so, people! dream big!

thankyou, Ano-san! for showing me this pic

 

Syawal

entah lah. raya pertama was quiet fun. raya kedua, not really.
I almost forgot it's raya. harini(raya ke2). I spend most of the time doing coding. a little bit of programming basic. indeed fun.
www.code.org -- it's CodeAcademy teaching the world how to code. no prerequisite needed.

oh so, I slept until 3pm lebih. abah masuk bilik, suruh siap cepat nak pergi rumah maksu.
abah tak cakap bebetul, actually kita nak pergi rumah baru maksu yang tengah buat family gathering.
aku siap cecepat, solat. my ghad~ with a miserable get-up, aku pergi rumah terbuka.
tudung indon hijau, baju cekelat, anda a pair of trackbott. truly villager lulz
I feel like killing myself. x|

What most schools don't teach - Feat. Mark Zuckerberg, Bill Gates, Will ...

I am mentally breaking up with you. fullstop

as a typical teenager, aku pun ada perasaan yang inevitable that leads me to have a crush. and he crushes my heart. grr. we have so many things related and somehow I feel that he is tweeting everything that goes in my mind. cane eh, dia seorang blogger dan da'ie. he appears as a perfect stranger for me. literally flawless, and I know it aint true in reality. so dia membawa kesedaran juga untuk aku tentang ummah, agama Allah and our stand as a Muslim sampai aku rasa "oh man, he is the one". aku sort of obsessed with him, ouch susah nak mengaku ni but I think of him most of the time sampai terbawa-bawa ke solat. I followed his twitter and made his tweets to appear in my notifications.  kekadang dia tweet jiwang and aku perasan, kekadang he says he miss someone and got myself heartbroken ahh ok ini sangat emotional but its true. everything he tweets, is what I want him to talk to me. ghad~ I am mentally dating him.

in this holy month of ramadan, I finally took an action to "break up" with him. u huh, o yeah. *gedix*
aku sedar yang I taught he would took me closer to Allah, so aku pun minat dia. but things get out of control. ini bukan fillah . dah lama sedar, tapi nafsu menafikan.

aku unfollow twitter dia, stop terima his notifications. get out of his life and start to live up mine. I found a little peace after a while. ada kawan pernah suruh aku buat macam ni awal lagi, tapi aku belum ready gak nya time tu. so long, mr. perfect. thanks for the memories. you did make a change a little change in my life.

tapi blog dia aku masih follow sebabzz itu agak inspiring. but not twitter,

Harta karun abah

Assalammualaikum. Bismillah. Hi everyone, today's story is about today.

This morning. I was in my sister's room, reading a big fat book called khalifah-khalifah yang Benar by Abdul Latif Talib. It's a compilation of 4 books from the author, it's about the 4 khulafa ar-Rasyidin in Islam. A simple,  yet well written book. I Love it so much that I wanna dance. It gave me a different perspective of a friend to understand Rasulullah SAW 's life rather than came up a whole bunch of facts. I feel like I'm living that time. I saw his actions, I felt the characters' feelings, oh  I'd prefer to spend hours on that book than sleeping.

Okay, as I am indulging myself reading, ummi called me out. She wanted to show me something, so she took me to her room. She pointed her finger towards 2 plastics bags and asked me to lift them up for her. Err. I wondered what's the catch. "Darn, its heavy." I mean it kind of weighed more that 10 kilos." What is it ?"

"Don't open that bag!" ummi said, "itu Abah punya....................... "

Well, you see, one of the bag is transparent so I saw a lot of coins in it. No wonder.

Then ummi continued, "abah told me these are the coins he uses to buy water. You don't need a lot of coins to buy water. With only 10 cents you can get half a litter of water, so I don't think they are only to buy water, but also the coins he always bring for you when you were in MRSM. "

Oh

Whenever Abah comes all the way to Pontian to visit me in MRSM, he always brings a small pouch that contains lots of coins for me to call home. I feel like we were back to Chinese dynasty where I'll get rewarded with gold coins from the emperor. The thing is, in my MRSM, we can't bring cell phones to the hostel; its the biggest crime ever, so ya most of my friends there were criminals la. Well for me, I'm kinda adhere to that rule and be the good guy. Besides, I don't really need a phone, I usually call home once in a week. Oh oh, I almost forgot, I NEED those coins to use the washing machine too. Ooo..

Fathers; they dont talk much. But they love you more than you think they do

Rekod saya teruk

Assalammualaikum. Bismillah.

Sebaknya hati ini. Ramadan sekali lagi bakal meninggalkan kita. Well, boleh jadi kita yang tinggalkan Ramadan dulu. Astaghfirullah. Are you ready? Ajal kita, kita tak tahu. We're never too young to die.

Semua nikmat  kat dunia ni senanye sikit je berbanding di akhirat nanti. Dah lah sikit, tak kekal pulak tu. Tepuk dada tu, tanya diri sendiri. So Cinta aku sepatutnya kepada yang mana?

aku ni ekceli nak cerita pasal mutabaah(rekod) amal aku bulan ramadan ni. Kalau aku sendiri tengok balik, memang sangat layak lah aku dapat gred paling rendah. Nombor paling corot antara manusia manusia lain. Ahh! Memang. Memang aku tak layak ya Allah nak masuk syurga mulia Mu. Tapi... aku tak sanggup masuk nerakaMu. Lebih rela aku jadi debu daripada mendapat azab seksa sebegitu.

Ahhhh!!, saya tak mahu hi-5. *roll eyes dengan gedik* . Kita harus berubah.
There is a few more days before ramadan ends. When theres hope, theres a chance. Nabi tak pernah ajar kita terlambat. Nabi kata kalau ada benih kat tangan, tapi andai kita tahu besok nak kiamat, tanam benih tu. Kiamat mai ah, tapi jangan hilang harapan. I heard this from ustaz don and got myself inspired to always have my highest hope on Allah, while expecting the worst to happen. Dalam 10 malam terakhir ni, ada satu malam yang lebih baik dari 1000 bulan. Satu Malam yang penuh rahmat. The moment of forgiveness still could be there. Cmon.. Competitive lah sikit. Orang lain duk sibuk kejar malam tu, kita tengah duduk rilek2 makan kuih raya, what the.. ramadan is still here. Theres a lot more you can do. its not how you start ramadan that matters most but rather how you end it and how ramadan affected you afterwards.

Sungguh, aku sendiri pun lemah. Contohnya.. kepanasan Malaysia ni pun kekadang aku tak tahan, padahal lahir lahir je dah duduk sini. Ni Allah baru bagitahu, panas tu apa. Then Dia cakap, panas api neraka tu berkali ganda lagi panas dari kat dunia. Allah tak cakap benda ni saja saja nak takutkan kita, Dia tahu hambaNya ni lemah,. That's why Allah suruh kita berusaha masuk syurga. Tapi hamba Dia ni degil, belum nampak lagi kan neraka tu *piat telinga sendiri*

Sepatutnya kita takda masa nak dengar cakap syaitan; syaitan tu kau dah boleh cakap confirm maa masuk neraka, sebab Allah dah cakap dulu. but kita ni still ada 'chance' lagi. Death is chasing us every day. We're just lucky that we can't see the death angel who keep visiting us. If I'm not mistaken, it's 70 times a day. My brothers, sisters and myself..... Today is the another chance for us to be a better Muslim than what we were yesterday. Use it to the fullest, make each day wonderful. May you and I , inshaAllah will meet in Jannah. Amiiinnn.
. Jazakallah khyr.

Reading hearts

Assalammualaikum , morning people ! Bismillah,
Oh I just love mornings. I feel revived and , I don't know but I appreciate my morning day that I can't let it be wasted by sleeping untill noon. Oh I don't like afternoons,  that's why I often sleep that time. Err. What is this?

Yes, reading hearts--the title. Since I first get into college, I hardly found friends that I can get along with. People here are so different; that was my first judgement. Hm, I want to write about this girl whom I think I can never be close to. Just a few minutes ago, I found her instagram acc that lead me to her blog address. I read her blog, and I feel the same. She just doesn't express her feelings through her gestures and facial expressions (are they the same? Err). Well, me neither. When I read her blog, I feel like I'm reading her heart. As a teenager,  a girl, a friend and a Muslim. We're all connected by the same feelings. But what makes us feel comfortable with only some certain people? Maybe the weirdness of mine doesn't suit some people.

Sometimes, we do random things. We feel lazy, rebellious,  unappealing, disapproved, disappointed,  etc. Please know that there are many other teenagers feel that way. How you react defines who you are. Of why I wrote this is because I always feel less than everyone else. I get carried away with people's lives--how fun, interesting and successful theirs can be while mine is just dull and boring. While I am not appreciating my life, there are others who wish they could live mine. This sounds like a cycle of people who didn't realize that they should be grateful of what they have untill it becomes what they once had. Your life can be magical and fantastic too, only if you believe. Believe it is possible, believe in yourself; however, if you had tried your best but the result doesn't seem to satisfy you, please have your full belief that Allah always has a better plan.

This, widen up my mind. Indeed.

Sem break

Tolong adik adik buat kerja rumah
Kemas rumah
Baca balik buku pmr
Buat kek pahit
Baca novel
Lipat baju
Main game
Tulis novel
Stalk anak teruna orang
Berangan kawen dengan a perfect guy from nowhere
Bertarung dengan nyamuk
Hidup bersama kucing
Beli baju raya
Plan alumni gathering dengan kawan kawan sekolah menengah

Ape je yang aku buat cuti ni. Sangat tak produktif. Okay there are some that sound beneficial. 

I miss old me

A month at home is terrible.  I feel empty. I feel like singing Maroon 5's empty. I can't fast, so I can eat as many as I want when everybody else is starving. My body aint hungry, but my soul is. I'm not happy wih this.

A few days ago, a friend asked me on how to overcome this problem. She felt this emptimess inside her like what I'm feeling right now; I answered it pretty perfectly, I remember. She found my words to be very helpful. Guess, Talk is cheap. It didn't work on me as I don't put them into practice.  it's easier not to do anything rather than doing something. No wonder comes a proverb sounds " action speaks louder than words "

Just now, I heard a quran recitation by mishary. I feel calm and wanna cry. then I remember. 

 

I miss my God

 

Ready to go home.

Assalammualaikum y'alls.
So today is the day I ll be home again. The dinner last night was a blast. Everyone seems to have so much fun. Well as for me, I found myself was building walls with my guy friends. Maybe this is just another Allah's will to keep me within the limit. While the guys and the girls were enjoying taking pictures together I seem to be left out of place. Awkward... talking about taking pictures, don't anybody dare to take my candid picture. Gosh sumpah buruk. I will never let anybody to take photos of me from the right view. I look like a fish. A pretty fish of course.

I planned everything well today. But i bear in mind that Allah's plan is better. I kind of make a research of when will my commuter come, when will my bus come, etc. So I got myself prepared to solar jamak dan qasar ehem ehem. On the way to the bus stop, the bus is already there. As I walk faster, it leaves me. Waaaa. I'm like 2 minutes late. Huu I didn't cry , as if I'm so strong and I dont really know where the strength come from. I just need to wait for another half an hour, I guess. What else can I do. I saw many taxis not far from the bus stop. I'm thinking of taking a taxi, it might burn my money, but at least I wont waste my time. then abah's words rushes to my head. Abah says that it's not safe to ride a taxi all alone. Hm, yeah okay abah.

I saw this guy heading to one of the taxi. He looks like a student too. He seems to be around my age. He's wearing a backpack and obviously wants to go to the ktm too. I was thinking of going with him! I mean we can share the money, it would be cheaper. I don't know... my brain say yes, go for it. My heart says no. And my legs follow my heart hm. Okay fine, I'll just wait for the bus. It's going to be 8 times cheaper than taking a cab. No long after talking to myself, ummi rings me. I was like, yea yea I'm on the way, literally. Then ummi said that abah is about to fetch me as my uncle invites all of us to come over to kl for buka puasa. Oh. Alhamdulillah I didn't go with that guy. Allah, you always knows best. I love you. Ok ttyl, I've got to be ready. Ready to  re-pray as I did solat jamak and qasar earlier and cancel my journey.. ummi told me to wear baju kurung as she has this motherly instinct that her daughter is going to dress inappropriately as usual. Heehee

Mengidam

Huu first time update blog pakai fon. Eksaited,..
Hari ni, tak nape. Mengidam nasi lemak,
Then, aku keluar bilik 7sth, beli nasi lemak tepi jalan
Homaigod, banyak giler , for 1 ringgit,!
Aku datang awal kot, dia dah nak pack2 balik dah,.
Banyak sangat tau, biasanya aku akan simpan half for my lunch nanti.
But not today. I ate 3/4 ahhh! Raksasa. Ok fine nk enjoy my nasileymek

berangan

kuat berangan. ni penyakit aku aku sejak azali. mungkin saintifiknya, austism.
tak, gurau je. tp dalam family kitorang memang ada yang autism. tp aku masih boleh boleh communicate dengan orang cuma aku, susah focus; easily distracted. I have my own world. let's just say this is half autism as I still can control myself. aku tak bosan tinggal sorang sorang, sebab aku ada dunia aku sendiri. malah, aku suka tinggal sensorang, cakap sensorang, fikir sensorang. eh macam orang gila.

masalah ni sangatlah ketara, bila time critical readingggg. aku sangat tidak focus! susah nak faham jadinyaaa. aku sangat lambat.terberangan what happened yesterday, what will happen when I get married, and always be in my fantasy. I thought and thought and thought and thought of WHAT should I do to get rid of this disease..? I cant , I tried hard. I blogged my feelings and try to keep myself busy but, yet I still cant.

then come this idea rushing to my mind. boleh tak kau berangankan benda yang patut.
take the positive side, that is what people call it imagination.
even Einstein appreciates it. he said, imagination is the key to knowledge.
like in critical reading, use your imagination to imagine the thing you read. it's fun!. try it out ;)

why am I different?

Diri aku ni sangat lain dari orang. dari kecil aku rasa macam ni. but as I grow older, I found many people like me; I'm not alone. they are mainly from MRSM and university. In fact, I realize that I have so many similarities with my dad. not all of them as I have some of my umi's genes of course so I'm still finding myself. I keep asking people, what do they think of me. I get bogged down by the definitions they gave me. they tell me I'm different, but they can't figure out what are the examples. they said I'm different(weird), and they don't know how to describe. So people, let me just be this girl, you can never be. hahah

You Are More than What You Think You Are

Ini zaman dahulu punya cerita kiranya. Bukan cerita betul pun aku rasa. Oleh itu, aku minta maaflah kalau ada unsur-unsur mitos(tambahan) yang aku guna untuk sedapkan cerita ni, sebab tak berapa ingat.

Di dalam sebuah negeri, tinggal seorang raja yang mempunyai seorang anak gadis yang cantik. Tiba masa si puteri meningkat remaja, raja itu mahu menikahkannya dengan pemuda yang berani sekali gus menggantikan tempatnya mentadbir negeri yang sedia aman makmur. Lalu, baginda mengumpulkan semua rakyat jelata. Soal dimana, aku pun tidak tahu. Tetapi, lokasinya berdekatan dengan sebuah sungai yang penuh dengan buaya. Mungkin sungai dalam cerita Si Kancil, siapa tahu.

"Barangsiapa antara kalian yang berani melintasi sungai di sana, akan beta perkenankan hajatnya termasuklah menikahi anaknda puteri beta dan warisi semua harta kekayaan beta."

Rakyat jelata terpinga-pinga. Mana ada manusia yang sanggup mempertaruhkan nyawa untuk merenangi sungai itu. Realitinya, belum pernah ada. Si raja sedih menunggu lama. Tiba-tiba, kelibat seorang anak muda terjun tanpa disedari, dengan berani dia berenang sepantas kilat melintasi sungai maut itu dan akhirnya dia berjaya. Semua orang menepuk tangan dengan kuat sejurus selepas pemuda itu berdiri semula di atas tanah dengan termengah-mengah. Sungguh berani.

Raja yang muram tadi bertukar gembira. Senyuman hingga ke telinga kelihatannya. Baginda menghampiri pemuda yang berani itu. "Tahniah, anak muda! Ini lah saat yang beta tunggu-tunggu" Baginda seraya bertanya. "Lalu, apakah yang kamu hajati? "

"Aku mahu tahu, siapa yang menolakku ke dalam sungai tadi?"


　

whoever you are Dr Seuss, you inspired people

unorganized

morning people. (: smile, it's a new day.

I have to polish my writing skill everyday. My SAT and TOEFL exams are coming nearer and nearer. So today I will have my toefl class with Miss Akma. I'm thinking of not going, and will just study in my room. Now I'm looking at the bed, and feel the gravity it emits. Let me think about it.

I do have many things to write up here, but the thoughts seem to be wandering in my mind, as they are in the state of unorganized. This is my biggest weakness in writing I suppose; having the ideas but can not express them really well due to the lack of ability in organizing my thoughts. I really can't organize anything, look at my room. ah. no, don't look at it.

Words are the dress of thought; I read this somewhere. I do agree. and I have to admit my thoughts don't know how to dress properly and elegantly just like my own self. I mean, look at me. If my umi knows how do I dress up for classes she might think of burning my closet and buy for new outfits hahah. naahh. impossible. she will just be upset. yep. I am worse than an ordinary girl.

like some of these 'ordinary' girls might say. "okay my friends would look so fashionable when attending classes well as for me, I'm the kind of girl who will just wear shirts, jeans and sneakers."

hm, I really feel a hard slap reading this, because my dressing is worse than that. I'll just put on my long sleeves, track bottom and kasut getah. Some days if I do feel like
I have enough time to dress up, I will; but most of the time, I don't.
oh heres my legendary closing remark,
I am an engineering student, heeee

another special day of life

Thursday night, I just had a karate training as usual. Tonight can be said quite special, we had an usrah ^^ with some new faces. New kids coming in. Have I mentioned about them? Oh I think I had. I found a long-lost friend from Bukit Rangin, Kuantan. We were friends(?) in kindergarten, wow I kinda remember her and many of the memories back then. Yeah I am quite impressed that I actually have a not-so-bad memory. Haha, I don’t want to talk much to her as she doesn’t really remember me which is great. I’m so ugly back then and nobody wants to be friends with me. I’ve got the title ‘weirdo’ ever since I get around people, who teachers would call them as my friends. Get it?

Back to my karate story. I love sparring! but only with Wan whom a good friend of mine. We often practise together. I just hate sparring with other kids. They make me feel unconfident. Aahhh~ then I got to pair with this big guy. He breathes like a beast omg you don’t want to know how. I didn’t wear my glasses so I don’t really know what I’m doing haha well I often got funny comments from the sensei on how I sparred with people. Too girlish, what so ever. Everyone is laughing, well I laugh too, looking at how stupid I was. I only saw it in TVs; not thinking I’m really doing it in reality. Ok I shouldn’t talk about this actually.

Then we exchange partners. I got to pair with another guy. A black belt holder and he is wearing a blue sarung tangan, for gusti-gusti. Ahh~ can you guys see how the world is so unfair! I need to protect my nails too! Daa~  I told you I didn’t wear my glasses but my heart tells me he’s cute. And he is. He didn’t really attack me. Well sometimes, but most of the time, he let me to attack him while he is doing all the blocks. Sweet, isn’t it? But I’m not gonna fall for any karate guy. This is the vow, I made for myself.

I remember the last time I fall for a karate guy, he made me stop attending classes. If you want to do great in karate. Be bold, and never had any crush on any karate member. Feel no shame, do whatever you want. No need to cover cover ayu! Woo that’s what I learned in a few years. You know the moment when you tertonggeng tonggeng kena belasah masa sparring, and caught your crush is looking at you erghh. if you're not willing to be stupid, nothing great is ever going to happen to you :') so to feel less shame, just don't have any crush near you.

future

 

I wonder what the future holds. I was thinking of skipping all these dramas and go to the part where I meet my soul partner and live happily ever after. I guess I forgot all the responsibilities that come together with it. so yes, I enjoy myself being single and free. enjoy my teenage years doing crazy stuffs. I have no idea what is coming next but I'm preparing myself for a better future. I have 2 dream boards . watching oprah and get inspired to believe in your dreams. it feels great

mooorninggg everyone. Alhamdulillah. we are given another day to live

 

 

today I woke up tiredly till I can't get up. my body feels so heavy. *o oh rock my body~*

but then I feel prodigiously happy regarding I have no class today for today. yippiee~

new kids coming in and I still have no roommate which is a good thing.
I prefer to be left alone. Imma hermit >..< I'd rather be sequestered than in a crowded place
I need all the privacy in my room. this room feels so home to me.
better than my actual home, because I have to share my room with my sista. not cool -__-

after performing subuh, darn I feel ravenous. get out of my room heading to a water cooler machine for hot water lol I wonder why people didn't call it water heater btw I'm Malaysian. together bringing my milo 3 in 1 sachet and my favorite mug , I'm ready to make my drinks. in a short while, my neighbor came out from her room, (her room is in front of mine, we're like living on the same level of a block , so we're neighbors) ready to go to class. she started approaching me. um she's from china. 

'hey there. going to class (: ?' .
'no... *smiling, like you kidding me? * I have no class for the whole day hee ^^'
'then why do you have to wake up so early tho?'

I was thinking of preaching her like.. hey imma Muslim, I have to pray fajr . and who knows she might be interested and will ask more about Islam, the religion that applies disciplinary. but due to I am so lazy to make up sentences in English I just gave a reply of

'I'm hungry'
'oh'

. . .
 

pengalaman sebagai pelajar MRSM

aku harap ini membantu, maaflah mak ayah, gaya tulisan saya ni untuk anak anak anda baca.  here are some little things you might be interested about MRSM

1 pelajar mrsm tak semua miskin.

2. MRSM students are one community. there are many competitions inter MRSM-- where we meet, talk, compete and become united.

3. pelajar mrsm akan graduasi semasa akhir tahun untuk form 3 dan form 5

4. Masa form 2 ada project sains semua pelajar wajib buat sebagai syarat graduasi

5. Pesta Type III (syarat graduasi) -- semua pelajar form 4 akan buat satu projek sains dan mini thesis dalam kumpulan tak lebih 3 orang. kalau menang peringkat maktab, boleh wakil maktab pergi Tunas Saintis MRSM se-Malaysia, kalau menang jugak, boleh  wakil Malaysia. pergi laa INTEL isef, inepo bawak project ke luar Negara. MARA sponsor. ini serius.

6. there are many MRSMs nationwide. so when you say that you're from an MRSM to an MRSM student . they'll ask. "oh kau maktab mana? "( the word "maktab" buat kami rasa elit lol sebab masih sekolah menengah)

7. Uniform kami lain sikit dari budak kemen(terian).

LDP/BWP:
kemeja biru, seluar hitam, with tie (L)
baju kurung putih, kain hitam, tudung.(P)

pelajar biasa:
kemeja biru , seluar biru gelap, tie always red.(L)
tudung always white, baju kurung biru, (P)

hari rasmi(isnin)/ hari darurat(baju biru tak basuh):
kemeja kuning, seluar coklat. with tie.(L)
baju kurung kuning/peach, kain coklat. (P)


 

8. roll call malam, buli ringan, merupakan perkara biasa. hm, belum pernah dengar lagi laa budak mrsm mati kena buli

9. perkataan "after" ialah perkara biasa. meaning: nak pinjam barang kau lepas kau habis guna
contoh ayat: weh aku after iron kau.

10. hidup pelajar diatur. dan ada yang suka

11. kami semua dipanggil Anak MARA. (manja je bunyi haha)

12. pengetua kami panggil 'ayahnda'.

13. here, you make families for yourself. you'll find so many kinds of friends of different background. pandai pandai cari. salah pilih, menyesal kemudian hari.

14. kebanyakan pelajar mrsm bangga dengan DS di maktab masing masing hahaha

15. other terms used,
kantin = dewan selera (DS) / dewan makan (DM)
library = pusat sumber pengetahuan (PSP) / pusat sumber ilmu (PSI)
blok akademik. (BA)
bilik serbaguna (BS). err..

HEP (timbalan pengetua hal ehwal pelajar)
HEA (timbalan pengetua hal ehwal akademik)
HEK (timbalan pengetua hal ehwal kokurikulum)

kalau kau graduate dari mrsm tapi terms ni kau taktahu.. hm.. asal usul kau harus diperiksa... orang akan pertikaikan betul ke kau ex-mrsm.

16. Kehidupan di MRSM sangat menyeronokkan dan kami cuba gambarkan untuk orang luar. boleh tengok page MJSC gags di facebook. (MJSC=MARAJuniorScienceCollege)

17. jadual makan kami ok laa. 6kali sehari. tu pun kadang kadang tak cukup hahah. aku akui berat badan naik aa masuk mrsm.

18. untuk pelajar form 3 dan form 5, ada annual dinner where 1 batch dinner sama sama, dengan stylo.


 19. 1 naskah surat khabar, untuk satu kelas. dan diedarkan usually waktu rehat. hm, bila dah sampai. THIS MEANS WAR. orang akan berebut. kalau kau perempuan dan kau nak menang daripada budak laki yang rakus. baling je bahagian sukan kat dorang, tu je dorang nak tengok biasanya.

20. ex-mrsm, senang dapat bantuan pelajaran MARA. kami panggil spc(skim pelajar cemerlang). dia dah tukar nama sebenarnya tapi kami panggil spc jugak. lupa ape nama baru dia. trial kau gempak, kau mungkin akan dapat offer ke university untuk both program dalam atau luar negara, sebelum result spm keluar. ni kau kena apply laa tak automatic, nanti kaunselor cerita. oh trial MARA sangat susah. kalau kau dapat straight As memang kau dah capai tahap dewa -,-

21. oh kalau nak tahu la. kena bayar yuran pibg ikut maktab, biasanya rm80 + wang caruman rm60 kalau nama kau tak selamat daripada senarai penerima bantuan MARA

22. biasanya warden, terdiri daripada ustaz. hm. so rutin kami biasanya: pagi baca alma'thurat. malam jumaat baca yasin

23. ada mrsm ulul albab, macam mrsm tahfiz. mereka hafal quran. sangat islamik. (kota putra, gemecheh, kepala batas)

24. ada mrsm yang tak ambil spm, mereka ambil international exam. IGCSE tak silap. tapi MARA nak apply kat semua MRSM menjelang 2016. boleh baca selanjutnya di sini

25.  MRSM guna sister pointer. kalau CGPA kau lebih 3.5 kau boleh graduasi dengan aman.

26. majalah maktab free.

27. morning call kat foyer kena nyanyi lagu negaraku dengan either lagu MARA, lagu negeri ada satu kot adeh aku lupa.
lagu maktab, yes

this is why I love einstein.

he inspires.

sayounara jahiliyyah

please pray for me. so I forget this crush, stop indulging myself in the music, and end my fantasy or anything that cause me to hold off my solat, thus forgetting my goal of life. all these are rubbish.

 hey world, I'm trying to get back on the track, on the deen of Allah.

nak jadi baik? istiqamah.and mujahadah
nak tahu kita tengah istiqamah dan mujahadah? keep a record.
tahu, semua tahu. tak amal mana nak berguna. adeh

Insha Allah, you will do good, shae.

Law of Attraction

I have just read this book of Law of Attraction by Michael Losier. From here you can see the power of mind in controlling the way we live life and what's coming next. It may not be a total control but it affects a lot.

 

Whatever is going on in your mind is what you are attracting. Our body is sending out vibrations either positive or negative depending on your thoughts. plant them delicately in your subconscious mind. Every thought has a frequency. Thoughts send out a magnetic energy. we learnt about energy. they can never be destroyed.

"Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life's coming attractions." Albert Einstein.

It also plays with your feelings. If you're happy, you're emitting happy energy for everyone. We can see when smiling; it's contagious. (: make a list, make a wish. focus on it, believe you can have it. dream big. the only limit in life is when you re the one creating it. be the little girl, shae. who have infinite dreams with full faith in it.

write it out. when we see something we don't want, don't think about them, write about them, talk about them, push against them, or join groups that focus on the don't wants... remove your attention from don't wants.. and place them on do wants. every time you don't want something, ask yourself, "what do you want actually" and focus on that.

 

prosperity comes when we express gratitude. science has proven this fact when our God has said it in the Quran thousands years ago. have hope, have faith. that are what creating lives awesome.

 

slow reader

In my reading class, I found myself not reading as fast as my other friends. I am like, twice slower than them, or worse. they could finish reading 2 articles and answer all the questions for each article while I haven't finish my first reading. Is there something wrong with me or is it true that I am suffering a disease so-called mild dyslexia? look I may not be a doctor but I knew something wrong here in the brain. I always feel like this since I'm a kid. who won't if every time you move to a new school and you always get the title 'weido'. ya ya I'm used to it whatever. it's arduous to find normal people in this world nowadays.

this is why I hate reading novels, I read slow. I would took almost forever to finish just one book.

so I Google it up though, I found something that calms me down when there's a discussion about this. one man came up with a fact that

From anecdotal evidence, it seems many engineers/science students are very slow readers. The difference in when you read a math and science textbook, usually nearly every word is important. In the humanities, you need to discern between information that is not needed to comprehend the larger argument in the text. Practice, mainly, is what probably could help your son read faster and also just to be cognizant that you don't always need every detail. Topic sentences, the intro and conclusion of the book and each chapter are nearly always the most important parts of a book and where an author makes the main points. Skimming novels is a bit different because they aren't structured like non fiction and just really requires practice.

well I need to know more about this

take everyday as a chance to be a better muslim

 

it has always been stressful if you keep competing with others. you might also feel less grateful.

 

looking at others is good,

to tell yourself, there are always someone better than you,

to keep yourself humble yet worry not.

looking at people less than you,

to remind yourself you're lucky for what you have now.

 

life is like that.

what goes around, comes around.

what goes up must come down.

put your thumb at the back of your wrist, feel your pulse.

if there are no ups and down in life.

you're dead.

enjoy every moment of life,

be appreciative to Allah

for everyday. 

 

this today of yours is so precious for someone who died yesterday.

sebaik baik pesanan adalah yang mengingatkan kematian

Aku adalah tempat yg paling gelap di antara yg gelap, maka terangilah aku dengan TAHAJUD

Aku adalah tempat yang paling sempit, maka luaskanlah aku dengan ber SILATURAHMI.

 

Aku adalah tempat yang paling sepi maka ramaikanlah aku dengan perbanyak baca AL-QUR'AN.

 Aku adalah tempatnya binatang2 yang menjijikan maka racunilah ia dengan Amal SEDEKAH,

 Aku yg menyepitmu hingga hancur bilamana tidak Solat, bebaskan sempitan itu dengan SOLAT

 Aku adalah tempat utk merendammu dg cairan yg sangat amat sakit, bebaskan rendaman itu dgn PUASA..

 Aku adalah tempat Munkar & Nakir bertanya, maka Persiapkanlah jawapanmu dengan Perbanyak mengucapkan Kalimah "LAILAHAILALLAH"

--Nasihat Kubur

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"Setiap yang bernyawa pasti akan mati"(Al-Anbia':34)

Di mana saja kamu berada, kematian akan mendapatkan kamu kendatipun kamu di dalam benteng yang tinggi lagi kukuh… (anNisa: 78)

“Tiap-tiap yg mempunyai jiwa akan merasakan kematian.”
surah al-A’raaf ayat 34 

“Sesuatu yang bernyawa tidak akan mati melainkan dengan izin Allah, sebagai ketetapan yang telah ditentukan waktunya. Barangsiapa menghendaki pahala dunia, niscaya Kami berikan kepadanya pahala dunia itu, dan barangsiapa menghendaki pahala akhirat, Kami berikan (pula) kepadanya pahala akhirat. Dan Kami akan memberi balasan kepada orang-orang yang bersyukur.”
surah Ali Imran ayat 145

 ”Sesungguhnya kamu akan mati dan sesungguhnya mereka akan mati (pula).”
surah Az-Zumar ayat 30

 “Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad): “Sebenarnya maut yang kamu larikan diri daripadanya itu, tetap menemui kamu; kemudian kamu akan dikembalikan kepada Allah yang mengetahui segala yang ghaib dan yang nyata, lalu Dia memberitahu kepada kamu apa yang kamu telah lakukan (serta membalasnya).”
(surah Al-Jumu’ah: 8)

"Orang pintar ialah sesiapa yang memuliakan dirinya serta membuat persediaan untuk kehidupan selepas mati, sementara orang bodoh ialah sesiapa yang membiarkan dirinya mengikut hawa nafsu tetapi mengharapkan cita-citanya dikabulkan oleh Allah."  (Riwayat At-Tirmidzi)

i doubt that

 

because it doesn't happen to make you sad twice in short interval ?

it's already June

look, June is here.

what am I ?

 

 

I fall in love with words

you keep posting, tweeting such sweet words.
meant for someone who is not me.
well she sounds pretty lucky .

if only you know, how much you're meant for me.
no, you're just my sweet dream.
there are many other girls out there
hoping you to become 'The One' for them
guess I'm just another girl.

weh kalau aku tahu rumah kau kat mana,
biar aku yang datang meminang *urgh*

#random. #aku tengah PMS ke ni -,-

iron lady kami

 

saya bersama umi, abang, kakak dan adik lelaki

melawat nenek kami di asrama.

yayasan al jenderami.

di jenderam, Selangor.

 

masa muda nenek tak sempat merasa tinggal di asrama,

sudah berusia Allah nak bagi juga rasa, tinggal bersama rakan rakan,

nenek sangat gembira sampai taknak balik.

 

nenek dibenarkan bawa handphone ke asrama, saya suka telefon nenek malam malam.

seronok dengar pengalaman tinggal di asrama, hampir sama situasinya macam saya di mrsm

ada ustaz warden, peraturan, kelas agama, nak keluar kena buat surat. hehe

ada satu hari nenek tak puas hati dengan roommate dia sampai minta tukar rumah.

 

saya kagum dengan seni bina tempat ini, sangat islamik

tempat ni sangat sesuai untuk belajar agama

kurang tangga, sesuai untuk orang-orang tua.

 

keluarga kami memang jenis ketawa dengan kuat,

tapi bila kat tempat awam semua boleh cover cover

tetibe kakak saya terlupa nak cover

pastu kami kena marah dengan warden.

ado. bikin malu saja

 

 

 

 

ini ada lagi gambar. oh itu bukan pokok kelapa sawit,

itu pokok kurma laa antum

hehe macam dekat tanah arab pulak

sapa sapa nak derma unta boleh contact yayasan ni ye.

 

saya rindu nenek, tidur dengan nenek.

dengar cerita nenek.

mesti geli hati punya.

tapi di sini nek gembira.

Alhamdulillah.

 

she will always be the strongest woman I've ever met.

 mata dia lagi tajam dari mata saya.

tak pakai spec

gigi dia masih cantik.

tak pakai braces.

tak pakai tongkat.

berjalan perlahan

and she's about 90.

 

aishiteru , nek.

choosing the right university

hm, this is hard. I have to choose. If it wasn't about getting a degree, I will choose among the most beautiful universities in the united states and I will.  Top 50 Most Beautiful Universities in USA
have different views than in Malaysia.

As I am majoring in computer engineering. I want to be like Bill Gates and Mark Zuckerberg who enters Harvard. but both of them were college dropouts and I found Harvard was listed in 2011 Most Stressful Universities in USA. Cornell was listed too. our lecturer told us that 2 of my seniors go there and only 1 survived, the other one committed suicide due to stress. *sing* If I die young...
NO I DONT WANT TO DIE YOUNG, I WANNA GET MARRIED.

here's the list for top universities for computer engineering


so next quality is, the composition of Malaysian Muslims there. no matter where I go, I always want to celebrate raya! I joined the US bound Malaysian Students group in facebook to know more. Many of them go to Purdue. hm.

ok done. I have my list. I'll apply for them insha Allah. (:
I wish there's tumblr university

kelapa dan orkid

hi guys, assalammualaikum.
I might not update as frequent as before as you guys know, my classes already start. hm.
oh, forget about me planning to write proper english. ingat tak pasal iklan yang.. kelapa dan orkid bagus..... untuk rambut......

somehow I find it, works. it makes my hair smoother. I used to have dry and brittle hair. but using this shampoo makes my hair feels great. and smells good. please have faith yang Allah makes it work. masa pakai tu, baca lah bismillah. selawat selawat ke. eh tapi dalam toilet haha. baca dalam hati lah. dulu saya fikir kalau saya selalu mandi rambut akan jadi lembap rupanya lagi kering, because the hair lose the natural oil they made. oil yang buat rambut kita hydrated. not water. another thing I do is, I apply olive oil before sleep. and anytime my hair get dehydrated.

even nabi kita pun suka pakai minyak zaitun. I found these over the Net.

Daripada Abu Hurairah bahawa Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda:

 “Makanlah minyak zaitun dan lumurlah minyaknya,
kerana ia berasal daripada pohon yang penuh berkat"
                      (Riwayat At-Tirmizi dan Ibnu Majah)

Minyak zaitun jernih dan berkilau seperti cahaya. Perkara ini disebut di dalam Firman Allah    swt dalam al-Quran Surah An-Nur:35:

“ ...yang dinyalakan dengan minyak yang banyak faedahnya (iaitu) zaitun yang tumbuh tidak di sebelah timur dan tidak pula di sebelah barat, yang minyaknya (sahaja) hampir menerangi, walaupun tidak disentuh api...

FIRST DAY on my SECOND SEMESTER

Hi, Assalammualaikum everyone.

I came late to class today. My friend and I went to Tesco for eating and shopping for some other stuffs when it's just 2 hours for the next class. I didn't expect the lecturer to question me for why am I late for her class. Am I still in high school? ok whatever. oh and she mentions about how she hates people who come late to class a few times when I am the only one appearing to be the latecomer. that is just great. then people start to look at me with smiles like hoyeah, everybody loves me. let me just cut it out here.

It's a new semester! I am going to start fresh as I am moving forward to pursue bigger dreams. How come you can have a better future when you keep looking backwards, shae? yes, smile. everything can change if and only if you're willing to let go of the past and learn from it. oh and people, I'll try to write properly. I'll try to use more vocabs next time, in shaa Allah. for this semester I have to polish my writing skills for SAT and TOEFL. please pray for me if you remember. (: that would meant a lot. thank you. I really want to go to America next year. >.<

I already had my to-do list. err. so many things to do. Yep. I'll try to catch up. MIT, here I comeeeeee :D

I phoned Nenek yesterday and I am so happy to hear from her. she is about 90 and still healthy, the strongest woman in the family. she inspired us so much that make most of the female in our big happy family to be as strong as her; spirituality and physically. I adore her so much.

SOLAT DHUHA

saya seorang yang sangat liat mengerjakan solat sunat dhuha berbanding solat sunat yang lain. tadi saya terjumpa artikel ini di facebook.

KEUTAMAAN MENGERJAKAN SOLAT SUNAT DHUHA


Ianya Amalan Berbentuk Sedekah.

Bagi setiap anggota sendi serta ruas-ruas tulang perlu mengeluarkan sedekah bagi menunjukkan ketaatan kita kepada Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala. Justeru itu solat Dhuha adalah amalan yang dapat menunaikan tanggung jawab tersebut. Daripada Abu Dzarr radhiallahu’ anh, daripada Nabi shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam, baginda bersabda:

يُصْبِحُ عَلَى كُلِّ سُلاَمَى مِنْ أَحَدِكُمْ صَدَقَةٌ فَكُلُّ تَسْبِيحَةٍ صَدَقَةٌ وَكُلُّ تَحْمِيدَةٍ صَدَقَةٌ

وَكُلُّ تَهْلِيلَةٍ صَدَقَةٌ وَكُلُّ تَكْبِيرَةٍ صَدَقَةٌ وَأَمْرٌ بِالْمَعْرُوفِ صَدَقَةٌ وَنَهْيٌ عَنْ الْمُنْكَرِ صَدَقَةٌ

وَيُجْزِئُ مِنْ ذَلِكَ رَكْعَتَانِ يَرْكَعُهُمَا مِنْ الضُّحَى.

Maksudnya:

Bagi tiap-tiap ruas dari anggota tubuh salah seorang di antara kalian harus dikeluarkan sedekahnya setiap pagi hari. Setiap tasbih (Subhaanallah) adalah sedekah, setiap tahmid (Alhamdulillah) adalah sedekah, setiap tahlil (Laa Ilaaha Illallah) adalah sedekah, setiap takbir (Allahu Akbar) adalah sedekah, menyuruh untuk berbuat baik juga sedekah, dan mencegah kemungkaran juga sedekah. Dan semua itu boleh diganti dengan dua rakaat solat Dhuha. (Hadith Riwayat Imam Muslim dalam Shahihnya, Kitab Sholaatul Musaafiriin wa Qashruha, no: 720)

Allah Memberi Rezeki Yang Cukup Sepanjang Siang Hari.
Bagi mereka yang mengerjakan solat Dhuha Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala sentiasa mencukupkan segala keperluan seseorang sepanjang siang hari. Daripada Nu’aim bin Hammar, dia berkata: Saya pernah mendengar Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam bersabda Allah Azza Wa Jalla berfirman:

يَا ابْنَ آدَمَ لاَ تُعْجِزْنِي مِنْ أَرْبَعِ رَكَعَاتٍ فِي أَوَّلِ نَهَارِكَ أَكْفِكَ آخِرَهُ.

Maksudnya:

Wahai anak Adam, janganlah engkau sampai tertinggal untuk mengerjakan solat empat rakaat pada permulaan siang (waktu Dhuha), nescaya Aku akan memberi kecukupan kepadamu sampai akhir siang. (Hadith Riwayat Imam Abu Dawud dalam Sunannya, Kitab al-Sholaah, no: 1097)

Mendapat Pahala Sebagaimana Mengerjakan Haji Dan Umrah.
Bagi mereka yang mengerjakan solat Subuh secara berjemaah lalu tetap berada dalam masjid dengan berzikir kepada Allah dan mengerjakan solat Dhuha pada awal terbitnya matahari maka dia mendapat pahala seperti mengerjakan haji dan umrah. Daripada Anas radhiallahu’ anh, dia berkata: Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam bersabda:

مَنْ صَلَّى الْغَدَاةَ فِي جَمَاعَةٍ ثُمَّ قَعَدَ يَذْكُرُ اللَّهَ حَتَّى تَطْلُعَ الشَّمْسُ

ثُمَّ صَلَّى رَكْعَتَيْنِ كَانَتْ لَهُ كَأَجْرِ حَجَّةٍ وَعُمْرَةٍ قَالَ قَالَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ

تَامَّةٍ تَامَّةٍ تَامَّةٍ.

Maksudnya:

Barangsiapa mengerjakan solat Subuh secara berjemaah lalu sesudah itu dia tetap duduk (di masjid) untuk berzikir kepada Allah sehingga matahari terbit (dan meninggi), kemudian solat (Dhuha) dua rakaat maka dia akan mendapat pahala sebagaimana pahala haji dan umrah. Dia berkata (Anas), Rasulullah bersabda: Yang sempurna, Yang Sempurna, Yang Sempurna. (Hadith Riwayat Imam al-Tirmidzi dalam Sunannya, Kitab al-Jumu’ah, no: 535)

Ia Solat Bagi Orang Yang Bertaubat.
Solat Dhuha adalah termasuk bagi solat untuk orang-orang yang bertaubat (Sholat Awwabin). Daripada Zaid bin Arqam bahawasanya Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam keluar menuju tempat Ahli Quba’ yang ketika itu mereka sedang mengerjakan solat Dhuha. Baginda lalu bersabda:

صَلاَةُ الأَوَّابِينَ حِينَ تَرْمَضُ الْفِصَالُ.

Maksudnya:

Solat Awwabin (orang-orang yang taubat) dilakukan pada saat teriknya matahari. (Hadith Riwayat Imam Muslim dalam Shahihnya, Kitab Sholaatul Musaafiriin wa Qashruhaa, no: 748)


TATACARA PERLAKSANAAN SOLAT DHUHA.

Waktu untuk mengerjakan solat Dhuha adalah sewaktu matahari mulai naik iaitu sebaik sahaja berakhirnya waktu yang diharamkan solat setelah solat Subuh (12 minit setelah matahari terbit atau untuk lebih berhati-hati laksanakannya setelah 15 minit) sehingga sebelum matahari condong atau tergelincir ketika tengahari (10 minit sebelum masuk waktu Zuhur atau untuk lebih berhati-hati laksanakannya sebelum 15 minit) menurut Syaikh al-‘Utsaimin di dalam Asy-Syarhul Mumti’.

Jika demikian, waktu solat Dhuha dimulai setelah keluar dari waktu larangan solat pada awal siang hari (pagi hari) sampai adanya larangan saat tengah hari.

Namun demikian waktu yang afdal adalah pada saat matahari panas terik. Demikian adalah dalil-dalil tentang waktu mengerjakan solat Dhuha:

Daripada Anas radhiallahu’ anh, dia berkata: Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam bersabda:

مَنْ صَلَّى الْغَدَاةَ فِي جَمَاعَةٍ ثُمَّ قَعَدَ يَذْكُرُ اللَّهَ حَتَّى تَطْلُعَ الشَّمْسُ

ثُمَّ صَلَّى رَكْعَتَيْنِ كَانَتْ لَهُ كَأَجْرِ حَجَّةٍ وَعُمْرَةٍ قَالَ قَالَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ

تَامَّةٍ تَامَّةٍ تَامَّةٍ.

Maksudnya:

Barangsiapa mengerjakan solat Subuh secara berjemaah lalu sesudah itu dia tetap duduk (di masjid) untuk berzikir kepada Allah sehingga matahari terbit (dan meninggi), kemudian solat (Dhuha) dua rakaat. (Hadith Riwayat Imam al-Tirmidzi dalam Sunannya, Kitab al-Jumu’ah, no: 535)

Sabda Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam:

صَلاَةُ الأَوَّابِينَ حِينَ تَرْمَضُ الْفِصَالُ.

Maksudnya:

Solat Awwabin (orang-orang yang taubat) dilakukan pada saat teriknya matahari. (Hadith Riwayat Imam Muslim dalam Shahihnya, Kitab Sholaatul Musaafiriin wa Qashruha, no: 748)

Jumlah Rakaat Solat Dhuha.
Jumlah rakaat solat Dhuha paling minimal adalah dua rakaat dan ia boleh dikerjakan tanpa batasan jumlah rakaat yang tertentu. Sebelum ini penulis telah memaparkan hadith-hadith berkaitan solat Dhuha yang dilaksanakan dengan dua dan empat rakaat. Berikut adalah dalil yang menunjukkan ianya juga boleh dikerjakan dengan sebanyak enam, lapan dan dua belas rakaat.

Daripada Anas bin Malik radhiallahu’ anh bahawasanya Nabi shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam pernah mengerjakan solat Dhuha sebanyak enam rakaat. (Hadith Riwayat Imam al-Tirmidzi dalam kitab al-Syamaail, Bab Sholat al-Dhuha, no: 273)

أُمِّ هَانِئٍ فَإِنَّهَا قَالَتْ إِنَّ النَّبِيَّ صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ دَخَلَ بَيْتَهَا يَوْمَ فَتْحِ مَكَّةَ

فَاغْتَسَلَ وَصَلَّى ثَمَانِيَ رَكَعَاتٍ.

Maksudnya:

Daripada Ummu Hani’, dia berkata: Pada masa pembebasan kota Makkah, dia bertemu Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam ketika baginda berada di atas tempat tertinggi di Makkah. Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam beranjak menuju tempat mandinya lalu Fathimah memasang tabir untuk baginda. Selanjutnya Fathimah mengambilkan kain dan menyelimutkannnya kepada baginda. Setelah itu baginda mengerjakan solat Dhuha sebanyak lapan rakaat. (Hadith Riwayat Imam al-Bukhari dalam Shahihnya, Kitab al-Tahajjud, no: 1176)

Di dalam Fathul Baari al-Hafidz Ibnu Hajar rahimahullah telah membawa sebuah riwayat seperti di bawah:

وَعِنْد اَلطَّبَرَانِيّ مِنْ حَدِيثِ أَبِي اَلدَّرْدَاءِ مَرْفُوعًا مَنْ صَلَّى اَلضُّحَى رَكْعَتَيْنِ لَمْ يُكْتَبْ مِنْ اَلْغَافِلِينَ ,

وَمَنْ صَلَّى أَرْبَعًا كُتِبَ مِنْ اَلتَّائِبِينَ , وَمَنْ صَلَّى سِتًّا كُفِيَ ذَلِكَ اَلْيَوْمَ ,

وَمَنْ صَلَّى ثَمَانِيًا كُتِبَ مِنْ اَلْعَابِدِينَ , وَمَنْ صَلَّى ثِنْتَيْ عَشْرَة بَنَى اَللَّهُ لَهُ بَيْتًا فِي اَلْجَنَّةِ

Maksudnya:

Dalam riwayat al-Thabarani daripada hadith Abu Darda’ secara marfu’ disebutkan: Barangsiapa solat Dhuha dua rakaat, maka tidak ditulis sebagai orang-orang lalai, barangsiapa solat Dhuha empat rakaat maka ditulis sebagai orang-orang yang bertaubat, barangsiapa solat Dhuha enam rakaat, maka dicukupkan untuknya pada hari itu, barangsiapa solat Dhuha lapan rakaat, maka ditulis dalam golongan ahli Ibadah, dan barangsiapa solat Dhuha dua belas rakaat maka dibangunkan untuknya rumah di syurga. Rujuk Fathul Baari, jilid 6, ms. 349 ketika al-Hafidz mensyarah hadith Shahih al-Bukhari no: 1176. Namun status hadith ini diperselisihkan olah para ulamak hadis. Musa bin Ya’qub al-Zami’i yang terdapat dalam sanad hadith ini telah didha’ifkan oleh Ibnu al-Madini namun dinilai tsiqah pula oleh Ibnu Ma’in dan Ibnu Hibban. Al-Hafidz sendiri berkata sanad hadis ini lemah namun diperkuatkan oleh hadith Abu Dzar yang diriwayatkan oleh al-Bazzar hanya sahaja sanadnya juga lemah dan apa yang lebih tepat hadith ini dha’if. Wallahu’alam.

Berkaitan dengan dalil yang menunjukkan jumlah rakaat solat Dhuha ini tidak ada batasan yang tertentu adalah:

مُعَاذَةُ أَنَّهَا سَأَلَتْ عَائِشَةَ رَضِيَ اللَّهُ عَنْهَا:

كَمْ كَانَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ يُصَلِّي صَلاَةَ الضُّحَى؟

قَالَتْ: أَرْبَعَ رَكَعَاتٍ وَيَزِيدُ مَا شَاءَ.

Maksudnya:

Daripada Mu’adzah, dia berkata: Aku bertanya kepada ‘Aisyah: Berapa rakaat Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam mengerjakan solat Dhuha?
Dia menjawab: Sebanyak empat rakaat lalu baginda menambahnya lagi menurut yang dia kehendaki. (Hadith Riwayat Imam Muslim dalam Shahihnya, Kitab Sholaatil Musaafiriin wa Qashruhaa, no: 719)

Ringkasan Tatacara Mengerjakan Solat Dhuha
Rakaat Pertama

1) Berniat di dalam hati untuk mengerjakan solat Dhuha
2) Takbiratul Ihram
3) Doa Iftitah
4) Membaca surah al-Fatihah
5) Membaca Surah al-Qur’an
6) Rukuk
7) Iktidal
8) Sujud
9) Duduk antara dua sujud
10) Sujud kali kedua
11) Bangun untuk rakaat kedua

Rakaat Kedua

1) Ulang seperti rakaat pada pertama dari nombor (4) hingga (10)
2) Duduk untuk tahiyyat akhir
3) Memberi salam ke kanan dan ke kiri

facebook + family = awkward

kejam sangat diri ini kalau tak approve darah daging sendiri kat facebook. tapi bila dah approve, pacik macik ni comment kita ni post unnecessarily. of course la, I am a teenager. I love to post some humors. My life is not like you guys yang dah kerja -_- I have plenty of time to waste. I can imagine their newsfeed are full of my unnecessary posts. mesti la dorang marah. I wonder why my other cousins look so decent in facebook. mereka sangat dua kali lima dengan saya. you know, we are family. we are about the same. and why is it always me since they are all still exist ? and you, pacik macik. you told us. you were once been in our age. but I think you forgot how it's like to be us. or maybe you just don't have facebook back then. omo, you don't even have computers :O. oh wow give a big round of applause for them people, they survived universities without google. what a genius. ok ape merepek ni =.='

so today my friend, jelita (not her real name lol) tell me something. she filters 'who can see my post'. I should've done that long time ago. filter it, so only my close friends can see my future posts without blocking my own family in facebook. *tadaa* silaturrahim dapat dikekalkan, gossip dapat dijauhkan. masalah selesai! *setelah menconteng arang ke muka sendiri* takpe, elakkan kes yang sama berulang.

even family dengan friends dah ada border, keep within the limit ea, shae. *uhuhuhuhuk* hepi nye

Of Hijab

who says wearing hijab is not beautiful? true beauty lies inside us. you just have to be confident. what is more beautiful than a girl who is confident enough to be herself, my dear? I can't say people wearing hijab properly would look hot, but I can say they look sweet. I just feel calm by looking at them especially those in tudung labuh (wide hijab?), I don't know about you. some of us girls wear hijab and at the same time, they are too into fashion. girls, you don't live up to their expectation. your submission is to something higher. who do you want to please when you cover your aurat properly? who ask you to do that? Allah. and when Allah asks the Muslimah to wear hijab, to fully cover your aurat. He knows you Best. He knows you better than your mother, better than Tumblr. Muslimah nowadays have so many styles in wearing hijab like the western do for their hairstyles. that's not good.

whenever we do something, think back of why we did so?
may you and I remember this always

I come across some awesome videos by Nadia Syamila. she is also a blogger. an ex-mrsm taiping student. I once saw her in Tunas Saintis, a program held by mrsm all over the country. she managed to win gold medal for her project, in Houston I think, I can't remember it well. well she is blessed with a wonderful personality. full of spirit. think I love her. she discussed about wearing hijab in youtube. I totally agree with her. I hope you will make more videos. (:

here are some pictures of nadia syamila(left) and aisyah shakirah. -->

apparently yes it's true

tumblr knows you better than your family

I lovee tumblr but I don't like my tumblr template. so I copy and paste teenager's post on my blog lol



I know it is annoying to tell you about him over and over again
but he is still here *tonyoh kepala*
playing in my mind.

I hate it

I'm lazy and I know it :3

post kali ni nak menyedapkan hati. untuk diri yang selalu dihina -.- oleh diri sendiri
aku ni memang penyegan orang nya *haha slang perlis*

aku rasa memang aku kena tukar nama from ''shae dow'' to ''Lay-Z''
oh oh I can rap!
I tried and tried,
and now I am tired of it.
so in the end,
I'll try to find the positive side of it.

yeah it sucks, shut up.
I really can't force myself. and I found so many people like me in engineering. we make good friends

 

just because I got some good grades in spm

most of my friends from secondary school keep asking

of why don't I major in medicine

well here is it, the little truth.

I am too lazy to be a doctor

who works all day and night struggling for 4 flat

 

I am not the one who speaks the way you want to hear

I don't really like it to interact with others.

I don't like people to look for me and tell me they're sick

I need some privacy most of the time

 

I don't intend to be an ignorant

I found myself to be blur sometimes and

I'm just too lazy to ask. "what?"

because I feel bad that you have to repeat it for me

after all the laughing and the emotions you already did.

by yourself.

it's.... gonna be awkward.

 

the way I think is also unsuitable to be a doctor too tho

in the nutshell, I have no interest in majoring medicine.

but I do love biology,

it tells me how little things

are so important

to make up great and complex matter

so, yeah. I am majoring in computer engineering. and I hope it's the right choice. Aamin (:

Get a Life -.-

I've been stalking someone lately. his tweets, tumblr.
and I think I'm going mad. I am so into him.
like, demit, -.- I am so good at falling for someone I can't have.
it's funny that you can fall for someone by just reading his tweets and posts on tumblr.
why do I feel like you can read my mind ?
oh yeah, great minds think alike lol will you marry me?
I told my (onni) akak about him, well she said,
if he really is just a crush, it wont be that long, not longer than 3 years.
did she just came up with a fact? omo, I have proved this long time ago.
and apparently, I forgot about it. I felt so relief after that
like of course, I'm not that ready to get married ha ha.

I wonder how it's like to be someone else.
I want to meet myself from someone else's point of view. can I?

okay, when I stalk over him. I feel like I'm living his life. his friends' are mine.
It hurts me every time he talks to some other girls.
that's where I come up with an awesome title of this post.
like I said, he kind of reading my mind and I saw his tweet.
"Dah tahu stalk tu boleh mengundang perasaan macam-macam pada hati. But yet still, nak stalk jugak. Memang dah tak sayang hati sendiri eh?"

well, he is that Mr. Popular. and usually I don't like this kind of guy.
I usually fall for a guy, no one would ever notice. someone like me. hah
not the one everyone is chasing around. maybe you're a bit mysterious.
this is soo against my nature. -.- I wish you could see me
and tell me I'm special? lol



for a moment, I'll live this dream, and then please, leave my mind.