and in the end you realized all you need is Allah. (:

my whole plan of studying during this sem break doesn't seem to work out. I felt it. something wrong with myself. I need to recover. mungkin aku patut bertafakur sepanjang cuti ni. hm. back to my roots. pulihkan rohani aku yang laparkan santapannya. aku rasa hati aku semakin keras dari hari ke hari. what happened. funny, shae. I should know what this is all about. solat 5 waktu, puasa and all that, you think you're good enough. orang bagi tazkirah, kau bajet dah tahu semua benda. where did you put your heart and soul in your ibadah? blaming yourself all this while for why are you being such a lazy bum, not realizing there's something wrong with your heart and your soul. I think that's it. go search for Allah. for there, you'll find peace. [: in shaa Allah

you can study sat and toefl later on, during classes. for now, you need a rehab.