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unorganized

morning people. (: smile, it's a new day.

I have to polish my writing skill everyday. My SAT and TOEFL exams are coming nearer and nearer. So today I will have my toefl class with Miss Akma. I'm thinking of not going, and will just study in my room. Now I'm looking at the bed, and feel the gravity it emits. Let me think about it.

I do have many things to write up here, but the thoughts seem to be wandering in my mind, as they are in the state of unorganized. This is my biggest weakness in writing I suppose; having the ideas but can not express them really well due to the lack of ability in organizing my thoughts. I really can't organize anything, look at my room. ah. no, don't look at it.

Words are the dress of thought; I read this somewhere. I do agree. and I have to admit my thoughts don't know how to dress properly and elegantly just like my own self. I mean, look at me. If my umi knows how do I dress up for classes she might think of burning my closet and buy for new outfits hahah. naahh. impossible. she will just be upset. yep. I am worse than an ordinary girl.

like some of these 'ordinary' girls might say. "okay my friends would look so fashionable when attending classes well as for me, I'm the kind of girl who will just wear shirts, jeans and sneakers."

hm, I really feel a hard slap reading this, because my dressing is worse than that. I'll just put on my long sleeves, track bottom and kasut getah. Some days if I do feel like
I have enough time to dress up, I will; but most of the time, I don't.
oh heres my legendary closing remark,
I am an engineering student, heeee

another special day of life

Thursday night, I just had a karate training as usual. Tonight can be said quite special, we had an usrah ^^ with some new faces. New kids coming in. Have I mentioned about them? Oh I think I had. I found a long-lost friend from Bukit Rangin, Kuantan. We were friends(?) in kindergarten, wow I kinda remember her and many of the memories back then. Yeah I am quite impressed that I actually have a not-so-bad memory. Haha, I don’t want to talk much to her as she doesn’t really remember me which is great. I’m so ugly back then and nobody wants to be friends with me. I’ve got the title ‘weirdo’ ever since I get around people, who teachers would call them as my friends. Get it?

Back to my karate story. I love sparring! but only with Wan whom a good friend of mine. We often practise together. I just hate sparring with other kids. They make me feel unconfident. Aahhh~ then I got to pair with this big guy. He breathes like a beast omg you don’t want to know how. I didn’t wear my glasses so I don’t really know what I’m doing haha well I often got funny comments from the sensei on how I sparred with people. Too girlish, what so ever. Everyone is laughing, well I laugh too, looking at how stupid I was. I only saw it in TVs; not thinking I’m really doing it in reality. Ok I shouldn’t talk about this actually.

Then we exchange partners. I got to pair with another guy. A black belt holder and he is wearing a blue sarung tangan, for gusti-gusti. Ahh~ can you guys see how the world is so unfair! I need to protect my nails too! Daa~  I told you I didn’t wear my glasses but my heart tells me he’s cute. And he is. He didn’t really attack me. Well sometimes, but most of the time, he let me to attack him while he is doing all the blocks. Sweet, isn’t it? But I’m not gonna fall for any karate guy. This is the vow, I made for myself.

I remember the last time I fall for a karate guy, he made me stop attending classes. If you want to do great in karate. Be bold, and never had any crush on any karate member. Feel no shame, do whatever you want. No need to cover cover ayu! Woo that’s what I learned in a few years. You know the moment when you tertonggeng tonggeng kena belasah masa sparring, and caught your crush is looking at you erghh. if you're not willing to be stupid, nothing great is ever going to happen to you :') so to feel less shame, just don't have any crush near you.

future

 

I wonder what the future holds. I was thinking of skipping all these dramas and go to the part where I meet my soul partner and live happily ever after. I guess I forgot all the responsibilities that come together with it. so yes, I enjoy myself being single and free. enjoy my teenage years doing crazy stuffs. I have no idea what is coming next but I'm preparing myself for a better future. I have 2 dream boards . watching oprah and get inspired to believe in your dreams. it feels great

mooorninggg everyone. Alhamdulillah. we are given another day to live

 

 

today I woke up tiredly till I can't get up. my body feels so heavy. *o oh rock my body~*

but then I feel prodigiously happy regarding I have no class today for today. yippiee~

new kids coming in and I still have no roommate which is a good thing.
I prefer to be left alone. Imma hermit >..< I'd rather be sequestered than in a crowded place
I need all the privacy in my room. this room feels so home to me.
better than my actual home, because I have to share my room with my sista. not cool -__-

after performing subuh, darn I feel ravenous. get out of my room heading to a water cooler machine for hot water lol I wonder why people didn't call it water heater btw I'm Malaysian. together bringing my milo 3 in 1 sachet and my favorite mug , I'm ready to make my drinks. in a short while, my neighbor came out from her room, (her room is in front of mine, we're like living on the same level of a block , so we're neighbors) ready to go to class. she started approaching me. um she's from china. 

'hey there. going to class (: ?' .
'no... *smiling, like you kidding me? * I have no class for the whole day hee ^^'
'then why do you have to wake up so early tho?'

I was thinking of preaching her like.. hey imma Muslim, I have to pray fajr . and who knows she might be interested and will ask more about Islam, the religion that applies disciplinary. but due to I am so lazy to make up sentences in English I just gave a reply of

'I'm hungry'
'oh'

. . .
 

pengalaman sebagai pelajar MRSM

aku harap ini membantu, maaflah mak ayah, gaya tulisan saya ni untuk anak anak anda baca.  here are some little things you might be interested about MRSM

1 pelajar mrsm tak semua miskin.

2. MRSM students are one community. there are many competitions inter MRSM-- where we meet, talk, compete and become united.

3. pelajar mrsm akan graduasi semasa akhir tahun untuk form 3 dan form 5

4. Masa form 2 ada project sains semua pelajar wajib buat sebagai syarat graduasi

5. Pesta Type III (syarat graduasi) -- semua pelajar form 4 akan buat satu projek sains dan mini thesis dalam kumpulan tak lebih 3 orang. kalau menang peringkat maktab, boleh wakil maktab pergi Tunas Saintis MRSM se-Malaysia, kalau menang jugak, boleh  wakil Malaysia. pergi laa INTEL isef, inepo bawak project ke luar Negara. MARA sponsor. ini serius.

6. there are many MRSMs nationwide. so when you say that you're from an MRSM to an MRSM student . they'll ask. "oh kau maktab mana? "( the word "maktab" buat kami rasa elit lol sebab masih sekolah menengah)

7. Uniform kami lain sikit dari budak kemen(terian).

LDP/BWP:
kemeja biru, seluar hitam, with tie (L)
baju kurung putih, kain hitam, tudung.(P)

pelajar biasa:
kemeja biru , seluar biru gelap, tie always red.(L)
tudung always white, baju kurung biru, (P)

hari rasmi(isnin)/ hari darurat(baju biru tak basuh):
kemeja kuning, seluar coklat. with tie.(L)
baju kurung kuning/peach, kain coklat. (P)


 

8. roll call malam, buli ringan, merupakan perkara biasa. hm, belum pernah dengar lagi laa budak mrsm mati kena buli

9. perkataan "after" ialah perkara biasa. meaning: nak pinjam barang kau lepas kau habis guna
contoh ayat: weh aku after iron kau.

10. hidup pelajar diatur. dan ada yang suka

11. kami semua dipanggil Anak MARA. (manja je bunyi haha)

12. pengetua kami panggil 'ayahnda'.

13. here, you make families for yourself. you'll find so many kinds of friends of different background. pandai pandai cari. salah pilih, menyesal kemudian hari.

14. kebanyakan pelajar mrsm bangga dengan DS di maktab masing masing hahaha

15. other terms used,
kantin = dewan selera (DS) / dewan makan (DM)
library = pusat sumber pengetahuan (PSP) / pusat sumber ilmu (PSI)
blok akademik. (BA)
bilik serbaguna (BS). err..

HEP (timbalan pengetua hal ehwal pelajar)
HEA (timbalan pengetua hal ehwal akademik)
HEK (timbalan pengetua hal ehwal kokurikulum)

kalau kau graduate dari mrsm tapi terms ni kau taktahu.. hm.. asal usul kau harus diperiksa... orang akan pertikaikan betul ke kau ex-mrsm.

16. Kehidupan di MRSM sangat menyeronokkan dan kami cuba gambarkan untuk orang luar. boleh tengok page MJSC gags di facebook. (MJSC=MARAJuniorScienceCollege)

17. jadual makan kami ok laa. 6kali sehari. tu pun kadang kadang tak cukup hahah. aku akui berat badan naik aa masuk mrsm.

18. untuk pelajar form 3 dan form 5, ada annual dinner where 1 batch dinner sama sama, dengan stylo.


 19. 1 naskah surat khabar, untuk satu kelas. dan diedarkan usually waktu rehat. hm, bila dah sampai. THIS MEANS WAR. orang akan berebut. kalau kau perempuan dan kau nak menang daripada budak laki yang rakus. baling je bahagian sukan kat dorang, tu je dorang nak tengok biasanya.

20. ex-mrsm, senang dapat bantuan pelajaran MARA. kami panggil spc(skim pelajar cemerlang). dia dah tukar nama sebenarnya tapi kami panggil spc jugak. lupa ape nama baru dia. trial kau gempak, kau mungkin akan dapat offer ke university untuk both program dalam atau luar negara, sebelum result spm keluar. ni kau kena apply laa tak automatic, nanti kaunselor cerita. oh trial MARA sangat susah. kalau kau dapat straight As memang kau dah capai tahap dewa -,-

21. oh kalau nak tahu la. kena bayar yuran pibg ikut maktab, biasanya rm80 + wang caruman rm60 kalau nama kau tak selamat daripada senarai penerima bantuan MARA

22. biasanya warden, terdiri daripada ustaz. hm. so rutin kami biasanya: pagi baca alma'thurat. malam jumaat baca yasin

23. ada mrsm ulul albab, macam mrsm tahfiz. mereka hafal quran. sangat islamik. (kota putra, gemecheh, kepala batas)

24. ada mrsm yang tak ambil spm, mereka ambil international exam. IGCSE tak silap. tapi MARA nak apply kat semua MRSM menjelang 2016. boleh baca selanjutnya di sini

25.  MRSM guna sister pointer. kalau CGPA kau lebih 3.5 kau boleh graduasi dengan aman.

26. majalah maktab free.

27. morning call kat foyer kena nyanyi lagu negaraku dengan either lagu MARA, lagu negeri ada satu kot adeh aku lupa.
lagu maktab, yes

this is why I love einstein.

he inspires.

sayounara jahiliyyah

please pray for me. so I forget this crush, stop indulging myself in the music, and end my fantasy or anything that cause me to hold off my solat, thus forgetting my goal of life. all these are rubbish.

 hey world, I'm trying to get back on the track, on the deen of Allah.

nak jadi baik? istiqamah.and mujahadah
nak tahu kita tengah istiqamah dan mujahadah? keep a record.
tahu, semua tahu. tak amal mana nak berguna. adeh

Insha Allah, you will do good, shae.

Law of Attraction

I have just read this book of Law of Attraction by Michael Losier. From here you can see the power of mind in controlling the way we live life and what's coming next. It may not be a total control but it affects a lot.

 

Whatever is going on in your mind is what you are attracting. Our body is sending out vibrations either positive or negative depending on your thoughts. plant them delicately in your subconscious mind. Every thought has a frequency. Thoughts send out a magnetic energy. we learnt about energy. they can never be destroyed.

"Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life's coming attractions." Albert Einstein.

It also plays with your feelings. If you're happy, you're emitting happy energy for everyone. We can see when smiling; it's contagious. (: make a list, make a wish. focus on it, believe you can have it. dream big. the only limit in life is when you re the one creating it. be the little girl, shae. who have infinite dreams with full faith in it.

write it out. when we see something we don't want, don't think about them, write about them, talk about them, push against them, or join groups that focus on the don't wants... remove your attention from don't wants.. and place them on do wants. every time you don't want something, ask yourself, "what do you want actually" and focus on that.

 

prosperity comes when we express gratitude. science has proven this fact when our God has said it in the Quran thousands years ago. have hope, have faith. that are what creating lives awesome.

 

slow reader

In my reading class, I found myself not reading as fast as my other friends. I am like, twice slower than them, or worse. they could finish reading 2 articles and answer all the questions for each article while I haven't finish my first reading. Is there something wrong with me or is it true that I am suffering a disease so-called mild dyslexia? look I may not be a doctor but I knew something wrong here in the brain. I always feel like this since I'm a kid. who won't if every time you move to a new school and you always get the title 'weido'. ya ya I'm used to it whatever. it's arduous to find normal people in this world nowadays.

this is why I hate reading novels, I read slow. I would took almost forever to finish just one book.

so I Google it up though, I found something that calms me down when there's a discussion about this. one man came up with a fact that

From anecdotal evidence, it seems many engineers/science students are very slow readers. The difference in when you read a math and science textbook, usually nearly every word is important. In the humanities, you need to discern between information that is not needed to comprehend the larger argument in the text. Practice, mainly, is what probably could help your son read faster and also just to be cognizant that you don't always need every detail. Topic sentences, the intro and conclusion of the book and each chapter are nearly always the most important parts of a book and where an author makes the main points. Skimming novels is a bit different because they aren't structured like non fiction and just really requires practice.

well I need to know more about this

take everyday as a chance to be a better muslim

 

it has always been stressful if you keep competing with others. you might also feel less grateful.

 

looking at others is good,

to tell yourself, there are always someone better than you,

to keep yourself humble yet worry not.

looking at people less than you,

to remind yourself you're lucky for what you have now.

 

life is like that.

what goes around, comes around.

what goes up must come down.

put your thumb at the back of your wrist, feel your pulse.

if there are no ups and down in life.

you're dead.

enjoy every moment of life,

be appreciative to Allah

for everyday. 

 

this today of yours is so precious for someone who died yesterday.

sebaik baik pesanan adalah yang mengingatkan kematian

Aku adalah tempat yg paling gelap di antara yg gelap, maka terangilah aku dengan TAHAJUD

Aku adalah tempat yang paling sempit, maka luaskanlah aku dengan ber SILATURAHMI.

 

Aku adalah tempat yang paling sepi maka ramaikanlah aku dengan perbanyak baca AL-QUR'AN.

 Aku adalah tempatnya binatang2 yang menjijikan maka racunilah ia dengan Amal SEDEKAH,

 Aku yg menyepitmu hingga hancur bilamana tidak Solat, bebaskan sempitan itu dengan SOLAT

 Aku adalah tempat utk merendammu dg cairan yg sangat amat sakit, bebaskan rendaman itu dgn PUASA..

 Aku adalah tempat Munkar & Nakir bertanya, maka Persiapkanlah jawapanmu dengan Perbanyak mengucapkan Kalimah "LAILAHAILALLAH"

--Nasihat Kubur

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"Setiap yang bernyawa pasti akan mati"(Al-Anbia':34)

Di mana saja kamu berada, kematian akan mendapatkan kamu kendatipun kamu di dalam benteng yang tinggi lagi kukuh… (anNisa: 78)

“Tiap-tiap yg mempunyai jiwa akan merasakan kematian.”
surah al-A’raaf ayat 34 

“Sesuatu yang bernyawa tidak akan mati melainkan dengan izin Allah, sebagai ketetapan yang telah ditentukan waktunya. Barangsiapa menghendaki pahala dunia, niscaya Kami berikan kepadanya pahala dunia itu, dan barangsiapa menghendaki pahala akhirat, Kami berikan (pula) kepadanya pahala akhirat. Dan Kami akan memberi balasan kepada orang-orang yang bersyukur.”
surah Ali Imran ayat 145

 ”Sesungguhnya kamu akan mati dan sesungguhnya mereka akan mati (pula).”
surah Az-Zumar ayat 30

 “Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad): “Sebenarnya maut yang kamu larikan diri daripadanya itu, tetap menemui kamu; kemudian kamu akan dikembalikan kepada Allah yang mengetahui segala yang ghaib dan yang nyata, lalu Dia memberitahu kepada kamu apa yang kamu telah lakukan (serta membalasnya).”
(surah Al-Jumu’ah: 8)

"Orang pintar ialah sesiapa yang memuliakan dirinya serta membuat persediaan untuk kehidupan selepas mati, sementara orang bodoh ialah sesiapa yang membiarkan dirinya mengikut hawa nafsu tetapi mengharapkan cita-citanya dikabulkan oleh Allah."  (Riwayat At-Tirmidzi)

i doubt that

 

because it doesn't happen to make you sad twice in short interval ?

it's already June

look, June is here.

what am I ?

 

 

I fall in love with words

you keep posting, tweeting such sweet words.
meant for someone who is not me.
well she sounds pretty lucky .

if only you know, how much you're meant for me.
no, you're just my sweet dream.
there are many other girls out there
hoping you to become 'The One' for them
guess I'm just another girl.

weh kalau aku tahu rumah kau kat mana,
biar aku yang datang meminang *urgh*

#random. #aku tengah PMS ke ni -,-